less than a week

.....less than a week! such a lifetime of great memories of that Nato-Tato! "think of it as gaining another daughter....ja ja ja...not losing...gaining!" nate is getting married next Friday! remember when he was first born? rememeber how hard it was to get him out? lol. remember that cone head? remember how jaundice? remember how i didn't want anyone to hold him? remember sucking on everyone's toothbrushes, getting into the trash cans, emptying the plants, getting caught under the coffee table, walking so early? remember when shanie was a born (21 now) and he was so gentle with her and would curl around her and sleep....he loved her so much! remember how he studied his own cub scout book to pass ofF himself? remember his first wrestling match? noisy gym...me ready to pull him out of there or go running out crying...he was so little still! remember how he thought the Golden Nugget in Reno was the tallest building ever? and he would say that he loved me up to The Golden Nugget? (when we lived in Reno) remember diving off the high dive and he was so little but fearless....always willing to do something dangerous? remember climbing to the top of anything? a roof? remember hiding the yellow book in each other's stuff? remember learning to ride a bike on a waaay too big bike...on a hill? remember how he always wanted the video camera's attention? remember his broken front tooth? remember how he played Ninetendo with his whole body...that is until Mom packed it away for good. remember when the bus driver left him...even though he saw him.....middle school....and he called me sobbing, mostly hurt that the bus driver could do that? remember asking him how his day was on a scale from one to ten? almost always a seven. and i always wanted him to say 8, 9, or 10! remember all the bruises on his big Bushman head? remember how he always landed on his head? remember his first crush? remember him doing extra pull-ups after the most grueling wrestling workout? remember how he only weighed 90 lbs. as a freshman and wrestled guys 10 lbs more than him? remember what a scrapper he was? remember how hard he tried to be good...to do good...to be his best? remember how unafraid he was to stand up for right with a group of rough wrestlers? and they respected him and treated him like gold? remember his first real girlfriend? remember him going away to college for the first time? remember talking to him every night? remember him getting his mission call? remember how he called from the airport on the way to El Salvador? remember how i cried like a baby? remember that hole in my heart when he was gone? remember what a peacemaker he was/is? remember his Mexican accent when he got home? remember how powerful his testimony was and still is? remember how he wanted to be a seminary teacher when he came home? remember how lost he seemed when he came home? remember when he met Kamie? remember when he was getting serious? remember how i fought against it? remember that ache that he wasn't my little companero any more? remember how happy i was to have him....to take him every where with me? remember rocking in the rocking chair for so long....then turning it back to rock back the other way? remember looking down at his tiny body as i rocked and wondering what he would look like when he grew up....wondering how he would turn out? REMEMBER?